I have decided to do a little experiment. This blog of mine, which I am wandering about, has seen less and less updates. In a way it is a bit hard and disheartening. Why do I continue having it? Do I have something to say? Is there anyone listening? Or is it just some nonsense fluff in the wind with no significance at all. I don’t know honestly. Perhaps as with many things in life the answer is yes and no.

Anyways. Sometimes you get at crossroads. Some things have changed this last few months. Some big changes in my life. Or not so big. I became a citizen of my new country New Zealand. I am over fifty now officially. I have finished my studies, and graduated as a Bachelor of Information Technology. All of those things are product of my longtime projects. Well, not the age, that just happens. The citizenship, it took like a decade, and the degree took about four years.

It is interesting, the difference you feel when you start something and when you actually achieve it. When I started it was my main goal in life. Now it is almost an ‘Meh’. Things change.

After I have reached my goals, I came to understand, is this really such a great thing? Did I really achieve what I wanted to? I mean outside appearance is important. But what we probably all strive for is some degree of certainty, safety, wellbeing. Did I really get that?

Probably not. NZ is in downward spiral economically speaking. We are in a depth of a recession, and honestly I am not seeing the end of it.

IT, when I started it, before and during Covid, was a promising field. Now with the hype and advent of the so called AI (it is just software), IT jobs are nowhere to be found. I feel a little bit like how I imagine weavers felt during the industrial revolution. Weavers, we don’t care anymore for you or your skills, we have all this fancy looms now. Go somewhere and suffer in silence.

It is funny how life sometimes plays out. Don’t get me wrong, not all is bad, dark and gloomy. There are bright spots as well. They are just a bit more sparse.